Sidestepping: my experience as a female Black tutor

“by Olajumoke Orebamjo I have been teaching for over 16 years (with the last 10 years in the tertiary sector) and I have had the pleasure and sometimes, unfortunately, the displeasure of interacting with individuals from diverse backgrounds, races and perspectives. Lately, my role, amongst others, entails one-to-one supervision sessions. This is a role like many other university roles which is repetitive and sometimes mundane in nature. Nevertheless, I particularly enjoy working with mature adult learners as I find my interactions with them intellectually stimulating. The sessions often deviate from the topic of focus to other issues that are not necessarily relevant, but what is gained from these interactions is not just a fulfilment of the aims of the meeting but also a general sense of wellbeing that is cerebral in nature. The ‘dance’ Because most students of colour have had little or no interaction with a successful individual from a minority ethnic group, what often ensues is what I like to call ‘side-stepping’, as we initially engage in a mental dance around each other, trying to determine each other’s thoughts, and oscillating between ‘prey’ and ‘predator’. This is a natural reaction of defended subjects; ever vigilant and ready to ward off potential threats. We spend some time on this preamble before one of us goes on the attack, which would usually be the student, who would ask the question I’ve heard countless times: ‘how did you get this job?’. There is the assumption that I could only have attained this position by questionable means. The perception of the student is that I’m ‘culturally suspect’ ( Orebamjo, 2024 ) and a possible stumbling block to their academic success. I have even been ascribed the moniker ‘oreo’ – black on the outside but white on the inside – by students who felt the need to express their disappointment that I was not Black enough for their liking or that I ‘act white’ ( Orebamjo, 2024 ). The students’ negative reactions never come as a surprise as I have become accustomed to this form of ‘friendly fire’ (Philip, Rocha and Olivares-Pasillas, 2017). It was a recurring phenomenon I endured while delivering the top up degree programme in health and social care in a London-based university. My attempt to mitigate the academic challenges of the mature students, who were all from minority ethnic groups, was met with fierce opposition from the students. In their view, my actions, as a Black tutor, not only exposed their inadequacies, it simulated the unrealistic, unfair and discriminatory practices of a hegemonic system ( Orebamjo, 2024 ). The students’ thinking was that my being Black meant I would have a better understanding of their lived experiences. It is therefore no wonder that any encounter with students of colour automatically triggers the ‘caution’, ‘get ready to attack’ and ‘attack!’ or ‘stand down’ (in that order) signal within me. I spontaneously assume a defensive persona, with a corresponding reaction in the student. Each encounter is the same, commencing with psychological dance; the student undulating between delight (of sharing the commonality of ‘minority’), suspicion (that judgement is looming) and disappointment (that no hoodwinking can take place). I’m also mentally prancing; assured of the semblance of authority I believe I possess, wary of the fact that a ‘deadly’ attack may occur at any moment, while at the same time, trying to convey to the student that ‘you are in a safe place’. It is what it is As a Black woman, I am aware of all these defensive tactics from global majority students and my experiences mirror those of colleagues from minority ethnic groups. The reactions of this profile of students are taken for granted and are ‘to be expected’. I do however tread carefully in these interactions because I do not want to fulfil the students’ negative expectations and so spend more time than necessary salving their sense of self-worth in a futile attempt to dispel all negative perceptions they may have about me. It’s like I’m saying, ‘hey I’m one of you so don’t judge me too harshly!’. Eventually though, I resign myself to thinking, ‘it is what it is’. The racial tension between Blacks and Whites is a common occurrence that is often presumed. Hence it is difficult, if not impossible, to explain these experiences to my White colleagues as these actions and reactions are born of the simple reality of an ’other’ interacting with another ‘other’ within a highly hierarchical higher education arena. Each one is engaged in a constant mental negotiation with the dominant values that pose a threat to their individuality and self-worth, whilst attempting to justify their membership of a seemingly hostile establishment that has no appreciation of their individuality ( Tormey, 2021 ). Constant reflection, together with extensive engagement with literature on mature learners from minority ethnic groups in higher education, has given me in-depth knowledge and understanding of the educational challenges of this erstwhile marginalised group of students and so I am well equipped to manage the students’ attitudes and emotional baggage. Of greatest value is my engagement with intersectionality ( Crenshaw, 1989 ), which has given me an awareness of how social identities such as race, class, social economic status and gender intersect and overlap to result in complex experiences of disadvantage or privilege. Many students of colour would have experienced multifaceted oppression resulting in defensive attitudes, which they end up bringing into their learning environment ( Orebamjo, 2024 ). To therefore come face to face with a Black individual with some level of authority – especially in a university that has a demographic footprint of almost 100% White – is reason enough for the student to call in the ‘defence calvary’. And so, the dance continues! Dr Olajumoke (Jumie) Orebamjo is a lecturer in Practice Development: Health and Social Care and Paramedic Practice at University of Cumbria where she oversees undergraduate and graduate research projects. She’s also a Senior Fellow of the Higher Education Academy and a committed academic with over 12 years of experience teaching and supporting students to overcome academic challenges by developing agency. Proven record of designing and effecting teaching and learning methods that develop students’ skills particularly in metacognition.

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